The last time I started a blog was in my senior year, as an assignment for my Humanities class. Every few weeks my teacher (one of two, as it was co-taught) assigned our class a question that would touch upon the readings we were considering in class. We read many works: the Epic of Gilgamesh, poetry by Emily Dickinson to name a few. We wrote a total of six entries in the year, covering topics ranging from leaving home for college to the reality of death (impermanence).
At the time I wasn't too crazy about this assignment. I wasn't ready for it-I didn't have any interest in publishing answers to questions that I didn't really care about answering. As a senior in high school, I thought I knew everything. Not in the sense that I was a know-it-all, but in the sense that I thought I had the perfect balance between knowing myself and admitting that I have lots left to learn. I found myself to be refreshingly honest. In theory, I was able to easily admit that I didn't know anything. And I thought that was the secret to life.
Ok...so maybe what I am writing doesn't really make sense to you. But I guess that's another major difference between the me that was then and the me that is now. I don't care so much about making sense to you. I want to write this blog for me, as a way for me to record my thoughts and release what's inside my head. Sometimes I might include pieces of my ideas re: a paper that I have to turn in for class, or a presentation I have to give. To be honest, I'm currently in a testing stage-I'm evaluating the pros and cons of using a blog space vs. something like 750words.com (a private platform). Blogging is a little bit too much like writing in a word document, with the confines of a tool bar and sheet of virtual paper. But other options don't have the benefit of different types of formatting, plus sometimes I need to write my feelings in COLOR!
And, another big difference between me now and me then (or maybe not so different). I'm in college now! I attend school in California, an entire country away from my homestate on the East Coast. Living in and attending college is so very different from being in high school. I live much more independently and am surrounded by so many inspirational people and resources that I have the ability and expectation to take advantage of...but more about that later.
Hope you will have as much fun reading this blog as I (hope) to have writing it.